Heart Break Diary: I CHOOSE GOD

I've been through a brutal lesson in life,
to choose God above everything.

I remember since Kindergarten looking for that female connection, I remember since then, in a very sad way trying to connect with that one-and-only special person, and have never been able to find that, and loneliness and the desire for love has totally kept me from God, except for when I would always come crying back to God, "why don't a woman love me?". Nobody has ever fallen in love with me.

But I feel the pain is finally over, I will never love ever again.
That is the lesson...

And at this point I feel blessed in a very curseful way of learning that most human love is temporary whether two lovers realize it or not, in this world the cards are stacked against love, I've been saying for a long time, I'm furious that, "we live in a world that does not allow love to thrive", meaning, YOU HAVE TO FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT FOR LOVE.

And I just fought with everything I had for over a year and a half, and the person I fell in love with didn't want my love, and I'm here to tell you, the 'forever broken hearted' that it is ok, seek God's Love. :)

I don't want to ever love ever again.
Love is a risk that is not worth taking.
Harsh Lesson learned!

GOD'S LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD'S LOVE IS OF NO RISK!

God may just make you a King or a Queen?

I tell anyone out there that is lonely,
GOD'S LOVE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH

~ BLUR