NETWORK AMBITION

I been trying to scope out Paranormal Investigator Groups to hire me because I am planning on making my must potent video-blog I have ever made next month, :KINGS PARK PSYCHIATRIC CENTER:, the most haunted dangerous place ON Long Island?
(shout out to my bodyguard sykochris)

I plan on going to survive the night ALONE!

Going there one night, prepared, glow sticks, glow in the dark clothing to bust out a rap, too. Swiss-Army Knife, hammer, iodized salt(elemental)for purification, and ghosts can not cross and iodized salt line, holy water, my Bible(pretty standard, really), crosses, my wooden blood cross to do a; Jesus Christ, Mother Mary, Archangel's, God, Invocation Blood Ritual, to bleed from my hands on my wooden blood cross, crossing the barriers of the elemental and faith, forcing Gods Hand, but also pleasing and appeasing *The Holy Gods* to lead me on the path of becoming a real life 21st century DEITY, and I will walk down all the levels and cleans all the suffering lost souls(ghosts)so they can finally be free and redeemed from God, for Heaven by day break=This will put me at a "force to be reckoned with" youtuber. A higher level. Who Out There Doing This Type Of Stuff? I am a Psychic Medium aspiring DEITY!

But this is in July!

First stop on the train, The Statue of Liberty, to declare my Spiritual Liberation from this world, people, and this existence, kicking of my Travel Documentary of #REDEMPTION(Faith Documentary), also hitting the tourism market.

And of course the MILLION DOLLAR CAMPAIGN FOR MENTAL ILLNESS is on the back-burner, I didn't get a good supportive response from the community I am at, which was very discouraging, but I am going to scope out jobs in the creative industries, I wake up every morning and do now 8 to 10 hours networking on line. I will message local radio stations, psychic/paranormal, maybe reality shows, #vlog companies, comedy companies, find an #EPIC job.

Trying to collaborate with Melissa C. Water - Idranktheseawater, she is brilliant. I relate to her, the struggles and the #determination, she wrote a couple books, been youtubing loooooonnnngggg time

SHOUT OUTS to my youtube dawg, my main social media dawg, Major Mike AKA PUCK
what it is...what it is...what it ALWAYS is... 

And just was talking with this dude today from,
YO MINUS Productions

because of his Donald Trump cartoon

And was messaging him that if he would use me as a character BLUR VS DONALD TRUMP FOR PRESIDENT that I would keep his channel showcase at the top of my youtuber, forever. And so, like minded people networking, creative minds meet half way, he was nice and put my youtube showcased at the top of his channel, and then I seen that he makes rap music, his own beats, and makes shirts. All stuff I'm planning on doing, start this mental illness/mental health themed fashion line, my cartoon WEIRDEST RAPPERS, and wallah!

That's enough #ambition for one day, Over and OUT!
Hey, they got DEEZ NUTZ signed up and running for president last election, why not mEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?

I'M ALL ABOUT PEOPLE ACCOMPLISHING THEIR DREAMS(be back, me and my mom need to go to church to get food, we no money - no water, hungry thirsty, one more day till foodstamps)(mental illness/disability life)

"RING FINGER" Poem(I know, I know, I should be a hand model)

I have this scar on my ring finger,
heart broken since a child,
how could I have known I was never meant to have Love,
what a waste of desire.
What a waste of passion,
when it was God the whole time,
my Mom is a Soul-Mate,
God and Mom taught me everything I know about Love;
Honor, Loyalty, Devotion.
Fruit of thy womb.
Honor is thou amongst Women.
A Woman is DIVINE.

So when I find my Soul-Mate,
I will worship Her!
I will worship the ground She walks on!
She will be my;
Angel, Princess, Queen, Goddess,
I will make her POWERFUL in all Her glory.
And I would kill you for Her.
I would commit suicide, for Her.

My Soul-Mate is out there,
and I long to be near Her,
but my ring finger is damaged,
I never seen clearer...

[when I was 5, I got my fingers slammed in many doors, leading to hyperhidrosis sweat disorder, the finger nail on my ring finger is half broken, and I never realized it was on my ring finger till now, and now I wear a coffin ring on my ring finger]

Mental Health Community Event: MILLION DOLLAR CAMPAIGN FOR MENTAL ILLNESS(PLAN; Amy Bleuel: Project Semicolon, twenty one pilots, Prince William: HeadsTogether, Wear Black For MENTAL ILLNESS)

COMBINING OUR VOICES=ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE 

The first potent plan for this, was to get 'twenty one pilots' to perform at the victory event.

Then, I am making a message video to Prince William and Princess Kate for they started a campaign for Mental Health, "Heads Together - #OkToSay", and it's about what Prince Harry and William went through when they lost their mother Princess Diana, and they had to do therapy, and maybe take medication, i have to learn more by this weekend.

Might as well make a video message for my fellow Aries, my inspiration, fellow New Yorker, 'LADY GAGA' too, and Demi Lovato, anyone to do with mental illness.

Demi Lovato may help?

Then dealing with feeling so much hopelessness, I dyed my hair black for this campaign, and going to keep it black till I either die or succeed at this, and now I got, "Wear Black For MENTAL ILLNESS", based on the reality that most of us are not going to survive mental illness, I probably won't survive, I may die soon, but whether I do or not, I am going to give it my all.

And the biggest part of this is if I can make Amy Bleuel, creator of Project Semicolon to be the face of this campaign, she is an Angel in Heaven now, shining down on us, giving us strength, she deserves the best, and to be remembered and honored, and have her voice and pain heard world wide, and all over the world people are getting semicolon tattoos to symbolize that their story is not over, and she committed suicide this past March 23rd, and she lost her father to suicide 10 years ago, and I feel she sacrificed her self, to be with her father, and to save peoples lives by spreading this message, she sacrificed her self for this world. It's beautifully poetic and so terrifying that someone has to die to be heard.

Now I have an entire community on my side!

All we need is for this to go viral, and it's a RAP?

BLURZ - MILLION DOLLAR CAMPAIGN FOR MENTAL ILLNESS: What would you do with 10,000 Dollars? HAS BEGUN

This is my celebration!
Celebration of VICTORY

A Song Of Reverse Psychology: This is one of the songs for the mental illness film documentary, because this song is a clear message, that he is saying the world is very cruel, and the people in this cruel world don't care about anyone but themselves. He cared, too much. Dave Williams Lives

I hope we can all celebrate too, when all my friends at my mental illness community gets 10,000 dollars each, then I will be HAPPY

What we need to do is go VIRAL I have over 1,200 youtube videos, accumulated massively over years of creative madness and life documentation determined to keep the humor, we all die, we all suffer, we all lose, this is existence, we as humans have to fight to WIN

 I lost my YouTube of over 1,100 video on August 29th 2014, they wrongfully terminated my YouTube, one morning I wake up, 1,100 + videos just wiped off the face of the MAP And with all the people I loved that I lost, with no trace of their even existence, I lost it and was determined to have a voice, but this youtube has been me and my moms only hope, and my mom had a stroke a day before her 60th birthday, June 10th, 2015 :(........ Also the car broke down the same month I lost the "YouTube", BUT!
 BUT! So, I'm severely mentally ill, and my mom has physical disability, when you really utter the words of TRUTH this is harsh, "A severely disabled (boy)man, with severe mental illness trying to take care of his disabled mother", and after my mom had the stroke, I think of it as I was the bird in the mothers nest, afraid of the world, wounded and fragile, my mom falls from the nest, far away, and is wounded, so I was forced to leave the nest out into the world to walk 10 miles+ every day to go get my mom healed(at the hospital)and bring her safely back to the nest.
(I am bringing in fliers for this campaign)

So I ended up at this therapy community, in December 2015, and after a ton of therapy,  because I blacked out after losing my youtube, then my mom after almost dying, I'm at therapy community and BEHOLD I magically got my YouTube back on February 5th 2016(WOOHOO)

Now here we are, May 3rd 2017,
People fighting to feel hope.
All these ideas formulated thanks to therapy and my friends.
We are all going through the same pain,
especially the financial piece just DESTROYS US
(1)So now we have this campaign going down
#MILLIONDOLLARCAMPAIGNFORMENTALILLNESS
(2)Million Dollars=10,000$ Each=Party(maybe Christmas, if we can make this go viral?), going to try to get twenty one pilots to perform, I have some strategies how to do so, but any ideas, any help, funding, prayers, if you know someone that could hire me;
I almost forgot a main piece, I am starting a travel documentary of seeing all of long Island and New York, called, BLURZ: Travel Documentary of REDEMPTION(Faith Documentary), Starting NOW, I need a job to have money to do this, this film documentary can help this go VIRAL, I'll be going places, such as; Statue Of Liberty, Intrepid, Botanical Gardens, Museums, Art Galleries, Central Park, Empire State Building, everything under the SUN
this song really inspired me through a really rough time,
these guys are brilliant because they are underground and mainstream at the same time, because they are underground because they have a cultish following, and they are mainstream for having such humongous commercial success.

WE'LL STORM THE CASTLE GATES!
This is only the beginning, being at the community made me realize, have an epiphany, a eureka moment, because I realized all this planning for starting a shirt/clothing company, seeing all the crazy level creative potential the people that I've met HAVE, and also the best people in the world, you know why? Because it is a non-superficial place, where people don't care about you for what you have, or how much money you have, or your "status" or power, or the way you look, or health problems, and to fuse the idea of starting a mental illness/mental health themed, clothing/accessory/FASHION LINE, and all the money this company makes, and donations, and so much more, goes to the actually people this business I am going to START is made to take care of, and have holiday parties, gift giveaways, and throw parties in ballrooms with a fashion runway, and we'll do mental illness/health film parties, with the runway, where the clothing that we created down the runway, slap these videos on the internet, people will believe it is a real fashion show, and we will rise to the top of the fashion industry, with a message that we are all works of art, this old-fashioned false reality of what beauty is, making people feel bad about themselves, we'll show them that people are poetry=MENTAL ILLNESS FASHION LINE

I really want this documentary to FIRE people up, so these are my 3 picks for this documentary going to dvd one day, will be SICK;
So Strap Your Selves In Folks, Hope Has Arrived!