...sometimes things break in the right pieces...

(What do you do when you die; you rest?)
Well, that's good. You got rid of your former self.

I would like to hope that by my 36th birthday that I was a man of CHASTITY and ABSTINENCE these practices are the best way to be positive for others. Instead of always being lonely dissociated in your own fantasy world, longing for connection, when the real connection is right there.

I have 12 days to do a nice PURIFICATION

April 7th, age 36, mark of the beast. I'd like to be sound with GOD and the ANGELS and with HEAVEN by then. I Hope

I held you so high and mighty,
me, a pebble afraid to even make a ripple, but I was trying.

I worshipped you,

you were my religion!

Now if I crawl the finish line, there's no telling what's after that.

But I'm as ready as I can BE

SHED THE SKIN 

Deuteronomy 30: "Restoration Promised"(favorite passage)

30 "So it shall be when all of these things have come upon you, the blessing and the curse which I have set before you, and you call them to mind in all nations where the Lord your GOD has banished you, and you return to the Lord your GOD and obey Him with all your heart and soul according to all that I command you today, you and your sons, then the Lord your GOD will restore you from captivity, and have compassion on you, and will gather you again from all the peoples where the Lord your GOD has scattered you. If your outcasts are at the ends of the earth, from there the Lord your GOD will gather you, and from there He will bring you back. The Lord your GOD will bring you into the land which your fathers possessed, and you shall possess it; and He will prosper you and multiply you more than your fathers.
 "Moreover the Lord your GOD will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your GOD with all your heart and with all your soul, so that you may live. The Lord your GOD will inflict all these curses on your enemies and on those who hate you, who persecuted you. And you shall again obey the Lord, and observe all His commandments which I command you today. Then the Lord your GOD will prosper you abundantly in all the work of your hand, in the offspring of your body and in the offspring of your cattle and in the produce of your ground, for the Lord will again rejoice over you for good, just as He rejoiced over your fathers; if you obey the Lord your GOD to keep his commandments and his statutes which are written in this book of the law, if you turn to the Lord your GOD with all your heart and soul.
 "For this commandment which I command you today is not too difficult for you, nor is it out of reach. It is not in heaven, that you should say, 'Who will go up to heaven for us to get it for us and make us hear it, that we may observe it?' Nor is it beyond the sea, that you should say, 'Who will cross the sea for us to get it for us and make us hear it, that we may observe it?' But the word is very near you, in your mouth and in your heart, that you may observe it.

PSYCHO RUNE: "Uber Iz Fringe" rewrote Red Hot Chili Peppers "Under The Bridge"

Sometimes I feel like, I'm Harry Potter.
Sometimes I feel like, I'm Schizophrenic!
It's the psych-meds I drink in,
and psych-meds are devils,
Holy as I Am, forever I try...
(p.s. I don't take meds anymore)

I love Meryl Streep cause,
she's my Godiva(chocolate).
I watch The Hills Have Eyes,
they know who I am :( 
I see my ghost flees and,
they kissing my skin and,
I'm a hung jury,
now that I abide.

I try to peel the egg shell peel;
another wasted day.
I wash my underarms with Dove;
take me all the way.
I try to be like Miss Congial;
I'm just not that brave.
Take to the Splish-Splash suds,
Spring is on its wayyyyyyy.

I'm barred from the Comic-Con;
they don't want me there.
I'm barred from the Comic-Con;
#ForeverAlone!
Atleast I have Hodor,
that giant loves me.
Boner as I Am, forever I try...

I try to smoke banana peels;
another wasted day.
I use lemon as deodorant;
take me all the way.
I don't ever wan'na skeeeeeeeet,
on a sad clowns face. 
Take me to The Sac-O-Suds,
I did not kill the clerk.

ON-TIME????????????

"Uber iz Fringe" sometimes,
I swear they drive for blood.
"Uber Iz Fringe" sometimes,
I could not get it up :(
"Uber Iz Fringe" sometimes,
he's got a gun in the glovebox.
"Uber Iz Fringe" sometimes,
I gave my identity awayyyyyyyy

Where I stay(with GOD)

video cumming soon

BLUR EN ESPANOL - LENT, 2017, March 1st Changes, Aries - Year of The FIRE Rooster

I'm not learning a second language, I'm SWITCHING languages.

I've had enough of these painful English racing thoughts.

And in a weird way, 
this is my REVENGE with everything going on with immigration.

And being a white skinned European from 'to Long of an Island, New York', with big dreams of making a 16 song music video horror story album, "LIFE IZ A BLUR", -En Espanol-, and then after that I come out with the English version of the same story, told completely different from a completely different perspective, and completely different beginner level filming, music video film fusion.

I am going to be putting out raps -En Espanol- as I learn Spanish, using the instrumentals that I have now, I have a song I am working on mastering in Spanish.

I have this weird feeling that Spanish is more of a 1st language here in America than English is, our damn ancestors stole this land from the natives(Indians, South Americans), so this whole weird "WHITEY'S" in power in congress, in politics, how dare they talk immigration when we are all from a long line of immigration, how dare they try to steal the American Dream, and hog it the way they do?

I love the Hispanic culture.
I started listening to/got exposed to Hispanic music back in the early 2000's, which such greats as; La Mala Rodriguez, Julieta Venagas, of course Shakira, some of the male artists; Wisin Y Yandel, Don Omar, Daddy Yankee, Tego Calderon, Calle 13, and that's pretty much it, the channel mun2 kind of ended somewhere in there, and being a heroin addict from 1998 to around 2005/2006, I practically lived in East New York, Brooklyn, Hispanic area, and here I am, in love the culture and language, I am completely shocking my system now, and battling severe mental illness, it has become an anxiety relief having a different language, through the music, running/flowing through my brain, this is the only language I will ever learn.(some songs that impacted me)Women come first, Women before men, of course.(Honor is thou amongst women, fruit of thy womb)

Because the health benefits to your brain from, not just learning a new language but completely switching languages, is UNCANNY :3 it completely changes your brain structure completely enhancing your creative abilities.

I am also switching hands from righty to lefty.
Kurt Cobain was actually right handed, but played guitar lefty, but people theorize that that somehow means he sold his soul to the devil(which I would never do, nothing here worth that). Besides the point, using your opposite hand, called being "Ambidextrous" is another POWERHOUSE to enhancing your intelligence, and one of the main things in this, and in creativity, is that this is FUN. Some people can force creativity, which is agonizing. I finally learned it has to all be natural for me, but the main point is to do what is pleasurable, what is fun, what you want to do, and that way you have an endless drive. I just listened to 'Aid - Tiempo' about 50 times already this morning, then I am heading to the library to get some Spanish books, magazines, movies in Spanish, and some instrumental cd's(see what they got?). So I am completely switching over to Spanish language, till my racingthoughts come out in Spanish. Plus, Espanol people genrally talk fast, which for my hyperactive ADHD brain, it feels easier for me to cennect with being face paced. And using the left hand is from the right brain(the creative side).

The Mayan's, The Incan's, The Aztec's, and so on, were here way before Europeans came to America and stole the land, and it is obvious what they consider, "Native American"(Indian)never died out, they are Latin/Hispanic, it's so obvious, so actually English is the second language of America.

As Spring Time nears, and with hyperhidrosis profuse sweating disorder, and the temperature and my body temp rising with the world becoming more alive, nature, animals, and insects, I am almost officially off caffeine for the first time in my life facing my anxiety disorder.
Going to buy chamomile pills(capsules, gel caps).

THIS IS MY NEW LIFE-STYLE(and I keep to my self)

What I am doing for the 40 days and 40 nights of Lent, is finally reading *The Bible*.
After a TON of therapy, I am able to finally move forward on dreams,
Really can't even sit still for a single second,
and that is exactly where wanted to be.

I have been stopped/stuck/trapped/stranded on; Deuteronomy 30 - "Restoration Promised", which will probably end up being favorite passage from The Bible. Now have over 1,400 pages to read. Then will make a Bible review video.

Going to get a job, walk in the rain every time it rains in Spring and Summer with video camera, start this comedy series of making these bizarre messages to celebrities where I act out parts of their songs or films, with some comedic message to them, and with a job start this beginner traveling vlogging of #REDEMPTION starting locally with Long Island. 

, and it is the year of the FIRE rooster, hasn't happened since 1957, so this is suppose to be the most successful year for a fire sign born in the year of the rooster?=REDEMPTION

That is THE PLAN

I GUESS I'VE LOST MY MIND