"Perfect Pressure"(rap)

You know,
sometimes,
you've got to learn, 
like Steven Seagal,
to thrive off pressure;
to swim in it;
become engulfed by it;
to get an energy JOLT from it!

SWOOP SWOOP!

Perfect Pressure,
I don't need your prejudice, Hannibal Lecture,
on my knees begging please for me to, bless ya,
while they teeth and fiend for a little, extra,
by any measure.
Perfect Strangers,
don't take candy from the monsters,
Danger Danger,
cause they're swarming and they're circling, the manger,
and I swear they couldn't get me any crazier,
but they always doooooooooooooooo :O

I got a couple of loose scruples in the noodle,
and I've been in hell for so long,
that I've been planning my own funeral.

But I keep rising out of the ashes; PHOENIX,
reborn for the ZENITH, 
time it's no crime, to seek a REDEEMING,
do you know what I'm MEAN-ing?

and the FIRE, in the soul it can't hold,
it's using a sword as a pen for another one of humanities stories to be told.
Let it unroll, to razzle and dazzle, the time piece of Jacob's Ladder.

Perfect Pressure,
We don't care if you're losing your tenure,
cause we're striving to make the world better,
and we couldn't care less about your chedder,
we are Tesla's!
Perfect Strangers,
just be careful and watch out for traitors,
and don't leave yourself vulnerable to haters,
don't cater to whom don't deserve favors;

and guard your heart forever,

forever and ever, for ever and ever, make sure, to guard your heart forever, forever and ever, for ever and ever, make sure to guard your heart forever,

(screaming)FOREVER AND EVER, FOR EVER AND EVER, MAKE SURE, TO GUARD YOUR HEART FOREVER, FOREVER AND EVER, FOR EVER AND EVER, MAKE SURE TO GUARD YOUR HEART FOREVERrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,

my heart is shattered,
beaten and battered,
I paddle thru the marsh,
as the martians they scatter,
I am getting better,
I hear the voices shudder,
they quiver and whisper,
as if the shiver will shift'em,
we're taking no prisoners,
cause you can't trust the living,
I am a dead soul, rebirthed on a mission,
uncontrollable psychic vision, 
too hot in the kitchen,
if you can't take the heat, 
then GET OUT THE CHIMNEYyyyyyyyyyyy

SWOOP! SWOOP!
that's the sound of the army
SWOOP! SWOOP!
run it back on a loop
SWOOP! SWOOP!
that's the end of the beginning,
cause, guard your heart,
cause,
you can't trust the living.

ANSWER THE CALL OF DESTINY

...and the band plays on.

that is my new year saying,
if you know, the band in war, doesn't stop playing,
you keep moving forward no matter what.

some of us are meant to be alone,
and I spend my days hiding from people.

some of us are not meant to ever have love,
do you want to waste your entire life waiting for a soul-mate that is never going to arrive?

I don't believe in love anymore,
I believe in war, because that's my reality.

I finally found a way to help people,
and now that makes me want to be alive,
and that is even a worse burden.

I'm better off dead!

do you believe in destiny?
; I do.

if you ask me what my destiny is,
I don't have an answer,
it may be waiting on the other side,
but destiny here may be nothing more than death,
the Grim Reaper,
the Angel of Death,
and I embrace.
but I know one thing for certain,
I want absolutely nothing to do with love.

but sometimes,
our dreams are our destiny,
but you must answer the call.
ukilledme💔

justwanttoescapethisworld

HEART OF STONE(New Years Day 2018)

I walk into 2018, with a HEART OF STONE.

because the soul does not have a heart!

took me my entire life to realize this, something nobody wants to talk about, that the heart is a physical, temporary thing, the heart makes us weak because love thru the heart vibration is only temporary, that is a FACT, but if someone wants to get into the heart chakra or the pineal gland saying that these parts house our soul, then it is really our soul that we love eternally with.

my heart has been shattered and killed,
my heart is caged,
never to be touched or seen,
ever. 

my heart has never actually been touched,
my heart has only had to brace thee attacks of false love.

(should've never even heard the word love)
to be tossed away like trash,
changed everything.

I now view being human, as nothing more than a condition,
an ailment that we all have to face,
and sooner or later,
it'll get'cha. 

not me, no more.

I'm already gone.

and all I can say is, sorry to the people that do care, but if you've ever, REALLY, had your heart broken, you understand these feelings. But this is about, me never wanting to love ever again, to die alone knowing, I will never have someone I love pulled from me by sheer FORCE ever again, because I will never open my heart ever again, but will always have love for people, and this world will always hurt people we feel love for.

I'm sorry, I'm not sorry, I don't believe in human love anymore, for other people, yes, but me, I am CURSED, so can I have your permission my fellow human beings to walk away? Am I allowed to choose not to ever trust or have love, get away from me with that kryptonite, good luck with that stuff, handle delicately, it is a highly deadly toxin.

there is no moving on,
there is only erasing,
and I did so much of that,
I am different now,
but stained with pain.

and the past is already drifting way,
do you REALLY know what that means about, ALL OF THIS?

and you took a big part of me I will never get back.
scrambling to put the pieces back together,
overwhelmed but how many scattered,
shattered,
pieces there are.

It's not hard to figure it out, good luck.

how could I've known that I am a fighter not a lover;
Captain Obvious.

and THAT is what pain sounds like