Welcome, I am Phillip, a human being possessed by a fallen angel named Blur, or just completely and utterly INSANE, not sure?
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This song was in my head this morning, and it's true?
The really messed up part of this, is that I just need at least 150 dollars a week to become a freaking millionaire, how insane is THAT? I'll explain how insane would that drive you? But you're too INSANE to go looking for a job, too unstable really, but what it really falls down to is that psychic people can't force anything. My intuition won't let me pass? Like an invisible forcefield of energy holding me back?
With a 150 dollars a week, of course I'd give my mom 50 of that each week, she is in dire need, and needs some maintenance and assistance, so, with the 100 bucks, added onto my 1,200 plus youtube videos, I start this Long Island/New York Travel Documentary of REDEMPTION, going to places as a human of GOD and FAITH for REDEMPTION, such as; The Statue Of liberty, Montauk Lighthouse, Empire State Building, Intrepid, pretty much everything on Long Island and New York over time, hitting the tourism market, boosting my internet personality social media presence, but going to make fliers in the first week of May and take my mission to my mental illness/mental health community with a plan to start a kickstarter and gofundme campaign to raise one million dollars to give all my friends with mental illness 10,000 dollars each, turn it into a documentary, take 100,000 of that money to start a clothing company to fund my friends with mental illnesses lives forever, and of course, take care of my mom with this money. That's the simplistic overlay structure?
There is a lot more to this. I am obsessed with strategic thinking, there is nothing like a good STRATEGY
This is what I can do with 150 dollars. I was trying to get a job this past month, it is just too difficult, I am taking this mission to my community, with some fliers so people see what I've got, and hopes that somehow someway something will come through as we stand UNITED
I will make a video and put it here in the following weeks to come. GODSPEED
Feeling very PHILL-osophical tonight; Reborn 2017=REDEMPTION?
It is Spring now. And I have been so traumatized in life that it's as if I am feeling it for the first time. I went for a drive. My first real drive since Spring really got nice weather. All the people are out-and-about, shopping, living. I drove up to the store to get milk. The walk from the car into the supermarket, was EXHILARATING!
On the drive to the store, I was just deep thinking as this older man(an elder), he was walking, for good health, and I'm driving passed him from behind, and he looks to the side, as if I might try to hit him? You know? The instinct of LIFE. The instinct to survive.
And so I say in a laughing manner, "Got'ta "BUY" more time!" "Got'ta "BUY" more time!" "We're all trying to "BUY" more time?", thinking and saying, "I look up to Kurt Cobain, he had a plan. He couldn't WAIT to get out of here. He was looking FORWARD to death.", really with a hardlined philosophy that not wanting to die, or being afraid of death is spiritually imprisoning. And I thought, "Well, you can't just live RECKLESS, you'll end up maimed, lose a leg or something.", and I thought of this girl YouTuber that lost both her arms and legs, and she is on YouTube, pushing forward with a positive attitude like a warrior. And I was thinking, "I wish I was RICH! I would contact her, meet up for a possible collaboration that the YouTubers do, to love and support, it's a magnificent phenomenon that I haven't been able to do yet, but I would bring her tons of gifts, money, gift cards."(YouTube Community :( )
I am trying to collaborate with Squirrel Barbie about squirrel crossing signs(no luck), and hopefully my first collaboration will be with Melissa C. Water(Idranktheseawater)?
But as I was thinking about the girl that lost her arms and legs, I've been feeling for so many years now, "When I am a multi-millionaire, I am going to contact everybody that has ever crossed paths in my circle of life(all the nice people of course), and give them money(if they need it).
It's a bizarre philosophy based on the spiritual principles that everyone we meet we are destined to meet, it's just we really haven't fully awoken as human beings yet to realize this eternal infinite 'one consciousness' connection?
So if you're rich, you just make a list of people that have come and gone throughout your life, and just go and give them money, we all know being ruled by money is of the devil, so I wouldn't hold onto all that money greedily. Think of 1 million dollars, you can give 100 people 10,000 dollars.
And being at my mental illness community, I plan on getting a million dollars and giving them all 10,000 dollars each in a documentary philosophy, that, the number one best investment for humanity is to invest in your fellow human beings. A kind of, -PAY IT FORWARD- type of gist, that that movie has stuck with me all these years, that's what I think of when I think of this?
, and, there is a very special woman in my life, that I absolutely ADORE, that I love so much, that has impacted my heart and soul like never before in my whole entire life, that I want to give a million dollars to, soooooooo bad. She is my WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My 36th birthday is today, and just like the hush hush secret hatred called "ageism" where people just treat that you should just roll over and die, hey, I'm 36, I shouldn't have any DREAMS or AMBITIONS, right? Just throw in the towel! GOD, I feel bad for people in their-40's, 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's, 90's, 100's, this world has it twisted, the elders should be running the show. "With age, comes wisdom"
So, over the next year, 365 days, if I survive this year, I will be doing this life documentary of this 'reborn philosophy' I been thinking about and working on for a long time. It's really about having a complete transformation, a complete spiritual awakening, every human being has things that they 'should and shouldn't do', but it is not so simple as just grabbing life by the horns a becoming complete self-mastery over night, this takes so much effort, really, everything you've got.
I'll be marking down on the calendar every single day - 1 through 365 - with the mission of full scale REDEMPTION in 2018?
REBORN PHILOSOPHY 101: The word *BORN* is the key! If you think of anything BORN, any life born takes time to take it easy, to grow and observe, to learn and adapt, to learn how to thrive and survive in its environment, the term "baby steps" is very important to me, with my anxiety disorder(hyperhidrosis), I will crumble if I stress out or try to force things to happen like I have been doing wrong all these years, the keys are; Letting-Go, Moving-On, *SURRENDER*(to GOD of course), Let-Go and Let-GOD...
Sometimes takes bit of Soul Searching?
I will pretty much be hiding away a bit. Staying ready and as prepared as I can, for LIFE or DEATH to come'a'knocking. I pretty much figure DEATH is going to be coming'a'knocking in the next year, I really can't see me living much longer :( so I need to be ready at all times for; DEATH
So this is a year of *ACCEPTANCE* of mortality, that it is really tough to have control in life. Faith in GOD doesn't mean you will definitely be REDEEMED in this human life, but that is the test, you love GOD anyway, with all your heart and soul, just like real human connection, you don't just love someone based on what you can get out of them.
Plus, I tell myself DEATH is going to be one of the best experiences, one of the most INTENSE natural highs as you cross over to the other side.
I try to tell my self that I want to DIE (bring it on, kill me, you'll be doing me a favor)
This mentality is based on the unfairness of wanting to live, so bad, peacefully, pain free, safe, but in a dangerous/violent world as this, that just doesn't seem real, so I take the power back and say, "I'm ready to die!"
ARE YOU READY TO DIE(or live to the fullest, with all your heart and soul, and live for humanity, to help your fellow human being, help ease their suffering, and come up with a real plan to help)?
GOD SPEED!
INSPIRATION: My inspirational person(youtuber)of the month - Melissa C. Water AKA I Drank The Sea Water
