Fly On The Wings Of Destiny.

You do not choose your destiny, it chooses you. And those who knew you before fate took you by the hand, cannot understand the depth of the changes inside. They cannot fathom how much you stand to lose in failure. But you are the instrument of a flawless design... and all of life may hang in the balance. A hero learns quickly who can comprehend... and who merely stands in your way. ~ Mohinder Suresh

Break Free From This Spiritual Prison:

Step 1 - Letting-Go: To let go of all that is temporary, to free one's self, spiritually, to an eternal existence away from the burden of this, false, physical reality.

Step 2 - Surrender: To yield to the possession or power of another(HOLY GOD). To give (oneself) up^

Step 3 - Fate: The development of events beyond a person's control, regarded as determined by a supernatural power; Karma.

Step 4 - Destiny: The events that will necessarily happen to a particular person or thing in the future, presented by ones sheer determination.

 - The hidden power believed to control what will happen in the future.

Step 5 - Spiritual Revolution: A united awakening of human consciousness, an apperception of reality which had been previously unrealized; A spiritual uprising.

Step 6 - Enlightenment: Internal wisdom of knowing; The high state of having knowledge and understanding that brings forth change internally and externally. Eternal Attainment!

Last Step 7 - Ascension: Rising to a higher level or frequency, eternal life(spiritual). Higher Intelligent Spiritual Being!

But you must first let this illusion of all this, GO. That all this in this physical plane is energy. Time washes away all physical aspects. What you are holding in your hand is already gone.

JOIN THE MOVEMENT!

BLUR

BLURZ - HORROR Movie Ideas: "PICK ONE ALREADY?"

I want to start blogging my ideas more.

I have this horror movie, or psychological thriller movie idea based on this character with D.I.D.(Dissociative Identity Disorder), also known as, Multiple Personality Disorder, and the movie idea is based on one simple principle. That this dark/twisted character is battling within himself to kill off the rest of his personalities(the bad ones)to have his good(best part of himself)self, survive? Will he be able save his best self? Can he defeat the evil ones within?

-[I also had this horror movie idea about this 'Death Fairy' that when people utter those words, "I wish this person was dead" or any type of wishful death thinking, said out loud, this mad 'Death Fairy' appears? than of course you have the psychotic/delusional FBI homicide detective that lost his job and became completely obsessed and reclusive, anti-social, has lost his mind trying to piece together evidence through mappings of cases all across America, to prove this "Death Fairy" exists?  Probably a dumb idea, but if written properly to make the FBI agents mental state completely crumble in the process and will stop at no length to high enough that he won't go, to stop, and FACTUALLY FIND THIS 'DEATH BEING' AND KILL IT. Would be a wicked climax to make this movie stand out, because usually these monsters don't really exist in the physical plain or realm.]-

Back to, 'PICK ONE ALREADY'. So the movie would be based on switching between personalities, that take over, look completely different, amnesia, loss of track and time, a best friend(a girl of course/love/horror/psychological film)who teams up to try and help save him(and many others=heeheehee?)with an idea of her spying on his "others" to find out who they are and how to stop them?

So it gives these other personalities an actual real shape of existence, that he has to literally kill each one, and a mad scientist type psychiatrist, gone mad, underground in the psychological field for his methods being to "RADICAL" is reached out to, and the main character undergoes being put under to find these other personalities and destroy them, or reason with them.

It's a debatable idea whether there should be murder in this film, because it's suppose to have a happy ending, that he overcomes his mental illness and lives happily ever after, in love, with only 'ONE-SELF' the good one, so if there's murder in it, then that means a murderer got away with it, buttttttttt, we can bend that rule and just say, it wasn't him that did it, per say. But then again, you don't have to follow the rules when it comes to ideas about a movie, better to go off from the norm. But there would have to be killing, IT'S A FREAKEN HORROR FILM, but I've seen some wicked psychological thrillers where nobody got killed. The writing was that good!

Everything has to spiral COMPLETELY out of control though; I'm talking, family, society, law enforcement, even the neighborhood pets. Nobody is safe in this film! And giving of the fact that will be realized REAL quick is that his bad alternate personalities are freaken sinister geniuses, but maybe his good personality is genius too? And there is a twist in the good Vs evil principle, that he has a -Child Self-, so will he be able to protect his child self, too?

Welp, that's my idea.
Not like any of these film ideas would ever happen, but still like to document them, cause I forget my ideas within a day, or maybe an hour, Or maybe ten minutes :3

This movie idea came from my researching a lot of self-help stuff about psychology, and I was thinking, with multiple personality disorder, wouldn't one of the best ways to recover from that disorder and take back control of your life, be to just, -PICK ONE ALREADY?- Pick your best personality, best self, and do away with the others?

It's a real BATTLE within.

Movie would be separated from, short beginning, short ending, and an entire middle of PSYCHOLOGICAL MAYHEM. Not to much of a drowning "Plot" cause we got'ta get to the action REAL quick! The battle between the alters.

That's my idea in a nutshell.

I thought about how to add a mystery twist into this, about this being hereditary(a family secret)passed down through the family tree(bloodline), but, who knows?

And because of the title, makes an opening to have some ridiculous humor, especially coming from the sinister alternate personalities, can get pretty BONKERZ.

Ciao BLURlla!

p.s - I also had a comedy idea about an underground illegal beetle racing ring, completely spun out of control with how serious the main characters can get when it comes to beetle racing? Running from the FBI, evading law-enforcement, gangs and different ethnic groups, mafia, etc., competing against(Will Ferrell, of course) the main character that has held the title for, TEN STRAIGHT YEARS IN A ROW(no beetles were hurt during the making of this film).

Welp, I'm bout to go check out the 1976 film, "Sybil" that I heard for a long time is really great.

No joke, a quote from, Cheeky Quotes, on the side of this blog, just read: "Allow me to introduce my selves. ~ Anonymous" 

Weird stuff like that happens all the time?

LET THE SHOW BEGIN :D :) :(..........

My life has been this LONG continuous trip since a child, no breaks in-between, like some freaky type'a space-time continuum. 

It's been like being on a continuous bipolar-roller coaster, and I'm finally getting off.

It feels like being punched around in the ring for my entire life by Mike Tyson, and he's, VERY ANGRY.

I say this, because it's time to end this pain I've been going through.
To walk away.
To finally put it to rest.
I can finally "Let-Go" and just be my self.
Not care what anyone thinks.
Or how I am perceived,
AS BLUR!

Goodbye cruel world, Hello *Eternity*

I guess I'm a real "DRAMA-KING?"

I will let go of insanity, and become sane... which might just end up being my most insane self yet?

STABILITY!!!!!! It is really nothing more than behavioral control.

LET THE SHOW BEGIN

CREATIVITY IS THE "KEY"!

Creativity is the *Key* to closeness to GOD.

I realize I want to spend the rest of my life being creative.
It is my PASSION.

Even with the harsh realization that everything that we create, is temporary, eventually vanishes, time washes over like a paintbrush.

*You do what you love to do. What comes naturally. Your PURE self, following your heart and soul.*

I once heard something so true, that if you're not doing what comes naturally to your self, living a life of forcing everything, that you are on the wrong path, and not being true to your true self; DESTINY woven into your Heart & Soul.

This is how I NEED to live, for I feel completely naked alone and afraid without it, lost and confused in the wilderness of this temporary reality. 

I'm going to get a job and use the money to start a painting site on the internet, doing a documentary suing YouTube for a million dollars(JUSTICE IS REVENGE). Start from there. Start some clothing/shirt design ideas I've had for a long time. Some photography, keep my mind focused on a 24/7 creative type of thinking, where everything I see is potential *ART*

The key here that people in the world do not really know, except creative people, the spirituality/meditation of it, from the saying, "WE ARE MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD" which I believe means, "WE ARE MINIATURE CREATORS" - We have within us the ability to *CREATE* =Creativity is the *Key* to closeness to GOD.

Let GOD flow through you as an instrument(woven patterns of[      ])

It's up to you to fill in the blanks of your life and feel a meaning of existence, I can only show you the door.

So where do you begin?

First, you must look at creativity as a whole?

I always found musicians really odd, for they would stop making music when touring became to much for them, and I would think, "Well you can still make music?" Some people, like Amy Lee from 'Evanescence' or Marilyn Manson, they paint. Musicians like Chino Moreno of 'Deftones' or Jonathan Davis of 'Korn', they're all about the creative process, they can't get enough of it. So, there is something there when you get LOCKED IN to a natural creativity.

I really want to do some documentary film making.

Forms of creativity:
Painting/Drawing etc.
Photography.
Writing(blog, fiction, non-fiction, biography, self-help, poetry, etc.)
Film/Video(vlogging, documentary, movie/television)
Animation/Gaming/Web design
Music(lyrical or instrumental)
Sculpture/building/architecture
Clothing/fashion/design
Physical Art: Modeling/Dancing(you can count me out of them)

Choose your pick?
There's probably a lot more.

For me, money has been my impossibility. All of my creative ideas had a certain PRICE. But I see this as a good thing that that is the only thing standing in my way, a lot of other peoples creativity has other obstacles? I'm a loner, so I can go for it without worrying about what anyone thinks. Most creative people are completely nuts and don't fit in in this so called, -Real World-.

I learned a valuable lesson when YouTube took my 1,050 videos away. After they WIPED seven years of creativity right off the map, and I used that to make me, stronger, smarter, tougher, to learn a valuable lesson in life, to reach a new enlightenment=THANK YOU ;) And the lesson was this TRUTH perception that creativity is about the experience, because all that we create will be gone within a blink of an eye anyway. Washed away.

And I'll definitely get it back anyway, even if I have to retrieve my lost files from my computer, the imprint is always there.

So go out there(or in there, withing your self)and start living a creative life, TODAY!(Do not wait.)

~ BLUR?

PoBLURetry: Till Death Do Us Meet

~ Born to meet you.

Born separated.

~ Stolen from you.

Brainwashed to forget.

~ Flown like a smiling kite in the wind.

Floating on by.

Swallowed by hell,

Out of the BLUE.

~ Resurrected dead inside,

till soul 'Brand New'.

~ Eyes opened for the first time;

like an alien being,

on a foreign planet?

Calling you,
but I don't know your name?
I just,
know you.....

Longing,

for HOME.

~ I will be there one day!

~ AND ON THAT DAY!!!!!

I will meet you.

WE WILL NOT BOW DOWN!

Do not bow down.

Do not be afraid.

Face your fears.

Face your pains.

Stand your ground.

Stand up and FIGHT.

Courage!

It is within us all.

DO NOT TURN YOUR BACK ON THIS

Evil will fall.

Holy will rise above.

VICTORY WILL BE OURS!

Embrace your fear and pain and=AWAKEN

TOGETHER WE RISE!

"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh." 

PoBLURetry: you must become a FIGHTER

Wake-up.
Clenched-fists,
Wooden-Cross in hand.
Throw Rosary over neck,
like a TON OF BRICKS,
HEAVY.
HEAVEN?
Throw those headphones on;
Caffeine Guzzle!
Jaw-tense,
Teeth-grind.

The day has begun,
as the weight of the clock,
TEARS ME APART.
(there's things I have to do before I die.)



<"Tunnel Visioned">



:WARRIOR MINDED:
:I will Lead my Resistance in my Own Way?:
:I've never been one to go with the grain:

you must become a FIGHTER

you can be fooled into thinking that giving up is the best option,

but hopefully you have it built in you to 'NEVER GIVE UP'

become UNBREAKABLE;
UNSHAKABLE;
UNSWAYABLE;
UNFAZEABLE;
UNJADEABLE; 
UNPERSUADABLE:

Stand Your Ground!!!!!

BLURZ: #TeamBoycottEverything

*Let-Go/Surrender to GOD*

Here's something you can do; "If I'm Dead and Gone"(in the *After Life*)

Pray to me, BLUR, in the *After Life* if I'm dead and gone, I will bring you Knowledge and Answers from the OTHER SIDE.

Sometimes the only thing you can do is leave MESSAGES in hopes that people will find them when you are gone.

#TeamBoycottEverything

#TeamBoycottChina Stop buying any products that say, 'Made In China'(which is almost IMPOSSIBLE)

If people of *Earth* really did this, it would collapse all these SOUL SUCKING industries, and suffocate them at their source(MONEY$$$).(fame, ego, exposure, vanity, power)

BOYCOTT SOULLESS/NARCISSIST MUSICIANS: Especially rappers. They got to go! Do not download their music, or buy their merchandise. Unfollow them. Unlike them. Make their numbers drop. Suffocate them at their source(MONEY$$$) Justin Bieber, One Direction, etc.

DO NOT CLICK ON/TALK ABOUT/OR PAY ATTENTION TO HUMAN TRENDS

BOYCOTT ALL NEWS AGENCIES/NEWS PAPERS/NEWS MAGAZINES/WEBSITES/ETC.: News agencies are the worst, fear mongering you into living a life filled with worry(FEAR), leaving you on an energy frequency of illness and violence. Violence sells(evil)! Why is that? Do not watch any news. Break the cycle. #TeamBoycottTheNews FOX NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BOYCOTT EVERYTHING HOLLYWOOD: :) (heeheeheeheeheehee) Hollywood is the soulless breeding ground of narcissists. Stop buying Hollywood magazines. Everyone stop watching TMZ and unfollow and unlike and unsubscribe to them.  #TeamBoycottHollywood Don't go to their narcissists movies, people like; Tom Cruise, Leonardo DeCraprio, but support humble people, like; Zach Galifianakis, or Owen Wilson. ;)

(Rule Of Thumb: Unconnect your self to anyone considered a narcissist. They can not breath without your attention or support(your money).

BOYCOTT THE RICH/BOYCOTT THE RICH: STOP ALL PURCHASING OF ANY OF THE NEGATIVE RICH COMPANIES: Fast Food!!!!!!!!! Go healthy!!!!!!! Stop letting this poisonous world order destroy and devolve us. No more unhealthy food. Let all those companies starve like they are starving our brains of pure nutrients, causing us diseases. Don't shop at "Government" owned companies; Walmart, McDonald's, etc. #TeamBoycottTheRich

#TeamBoycottTheFoodIndustry by you buying only healthy foods, you are doing a HUGE part in taking away thousands of dollars a year from these food companies that are killing us human beings.

I think that pretty much covers it?(dusting off my hands)

PUT GOD/HOLYNESS/WHAT IS ETERNAL, YOUR SOUL, FIRST, ABOVE ALL ELSE(If enough of us do this=WE WIN!!!!!!!)

#TeamBoycottEvil

(I once heard that EVIL feeds off all us humans negative energies, that it is a 'food/fuel' source for them. #TeamBoycottEvil =BE AS POSITIVE/LOVING PERSON AS YOU CAN, AND SPREAD THAT POSITIVE ENERGY LIKE WILD FIRE, AND CUT OFF EVILS FUEL SOURCE)(Hate/Violence/Anger/Fear/All negative emotions/is what FEEDS THEM)

To think evil is getting our priceless souls for things that exist in this small plane of physical existence, if you really understand *Time*, this life is to short to be considered REAL living, there is no living in this physical plane, it's an ILLUSION 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Physical_plane

What does this all lead up to?

#TeamBoycottTheSystem

BLURZ BIZARRO WORLD: HYPOCHONDRIAC DENIAL

"Self-destruction is like a ticking time-bomb, for it comes in many pieces, but if you can learn to get rid of certain pieces, you can stop the explosion." ~ BLUR

Well, this all started with me trying to quit caffeine two days ago, having a headache for two days straight, I just started to obsess again, "I'M DYING! THERE'S NO HOPE! TO HELL WITH IT!" I went down to two cups of tea, -one in the morning, one at night-, and ended up getting really angry at life, GOD, that I can't freaking quit caffeine. I can't ever just feel completely abstinent? And I'm determined to, if not for the only reward of pride in my self.

Anyway, the thing is, I would always say things like, "I'm not your textbook definition of a hypochondriac, for I never believe I'm going to get ill." Cause I'm really an optimist, but bi-polar SO I'M ALSO A FREAKIN PESSIMIST :(

A FUTURIST!!!(that get's me in trouble, too. save that for a rainy day)

So I'm sitting on the edge of my bed, with a realization hitting me like a TON of bricks flown off the side of one of China's fastest locomotive freight trains(slurpy breath in)...but, I mean, I don't use deodorant, I use lemon on my underarms. I use natural toothpaste and mouthwash that they are both like this brutal experience of ingesting poison. 

These are my first thoughts that just broke the chain of the realization that I have a completely new serious diagnosis I have to deal with, because it throws a monkey wrench into any possible progress, cause I'm trapped in this vicious cycle of starting to feel hope, and then hypochondria comes in to RUIN THE DAY.

HERE HYPOCHONDRIA COMES TO RUIN THE DAYYYYYYYYYY!
(just thought of a funny Super Man cartoon comedy parody, "Hypochondriac Man - Here to ruin your day.")

I wear gloves when I use my computer for crying out loud? :(.........

Welp!

It is, what it is.

At least, I know.

So now I have no choice but to 'Let Things Go'(Let-Go), cause I have to battle this cycle of starting to feel hope, to have that hope squashed if I get something as simple as a sore throat, so I have to live in the moment, let go of any hopes for the future.

You know? There's a lot of quotes from people throughout history that were really against this, "FALSE HOPE" - That it really is this, Let Down? Sayings like, "Better not get your hopes up!"

Seriously!

Well.

Great.

Got'ta walk into therapy on Tuesday with another monkey wrench to throw into my recovery.

I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR YEARS!!!!!!!!

Alrighttttttt......... - >TO THE DOCTOR

JUST KIDDING, JUST KIDDING, I'M KIDDING.

I was in denial that i was a hypochondriac because I never go to the doctor(sounds like bad joke :( )

Obsessed with death=HYPOCHONDRIAC
(You might be a hypochondriac???)

CATCH'YA'LATER

DEALING WITH HOPELESSNESS with FLIP

Hello, I am FLIP!

I am here to help with some ideas on how to BATTLE your feelings of hopelessness, as well as tell you about my FIGHT with hopelessness.

I have been battling severe hopelessness for the passed 15 years.
But the first thing I wanted to state,
is that there's probably no hope for me to have any type of life here as a human being,
my life is most likely over,
but it's still POSSIBLE,
so I do the right thing,
and advance forward.

Hopelessness isn't so bad for me because I'm an #Ascension person,
that lives life for the soul purpose of advancing into the *After Life*.

But that doesn't mean that I don't really desire to have a purposeful, productive, fun life while here. I've fought with everything I've had, for years, striving for #Redemption, but never even, touching, or tasting it.

This will not be a post about GOD or FAITH, because I am duel-diagnosis(person suffering from addiction and mental illness), so we will keep this based on psychology, psychological/mental and emotional tools, and one of my best used tools so for, besides researching what I deal with, and what others deal with, on a daily basis, PHYSICAL TRAINING????? [oh, my :3 ] Because I use; factual/scientific/physiological methods that really work, to lighten the load of life, and make you a 'Super-Tough Warrior-Machine'=YES!!!!!!!

And I have to clarify something that made my life WAY easier, and that is, that, "Suffering is a part of ALL life!" there is no exemption, for any life forms that we know of, even down to the microscopic, but, it comes and goes. PAIN ENDS(eventually). But you can build your pain threshold, and stamina, and ability to endure.

I committed suicide at 17.
Let's get that cat out of the bag.
Shot a fatal dose of heroin on purpose,
died in my moms arms,
came back,
but I say this because my hopelessness started at that age,
and I really don't know, 
"WHAT WAS SO BAD?"

I felt utterly hopeless? :(

Now 34 years in this crazy human machine. ;)

This Is What I Do: I go to the gym, EVERY single day(to become tough as stone), and to the grocery store for my mom, which my mom is in recovery from a stroke that she had a day before her 60th birthday(ARGHHHHH=LIFE). Which is also a 6 to 8 mile walk each day, which I also have human interaction issues, I was born with a TON of fear and anxiety and the profuse sweating disorder; HYPERHIDROSIS(got'ta caps that one).

What I'm trying to say here, is there are scientific principles, that if life is to tough for you, to painful for you to endure, I've finally learned the crazy truth of not retreating, or trying to escape the hardship, or the fear, or the pain, but instead forging forward right thru it, FULL STEAMS AHEAD - STORM THE TORPEDOES. And this mindset I gained, by pushing my self.

I got sick of being beat up by life!

I've programmed my self to feel, "I don't care if it's hopeless, I'm advancing forward anyway."
AND THIS MINDSET, WORKS!

I'm a, Hyperhidrosis, ADHD, PTSD, DID(dissociative identity disorder), Schizophrenic, Bi-Polar, paranoid/hypochondriac, swimming in behavioral problems, OCD.

And with this swim of diagnosises(sssssss=BLAHHHH), I'm not on psych medication! And that is one of the MAIN KEYS of me finally getting better. Cause there was no solution there.

If you have negative behaviors in your life that make you feel, weaker, ashamed, filled with guilt, then you are going to have to get disciplined and overcome them to become strong enough to endure life.

DEATH: The number one fear in the world.

I prepare for death every single day.
My logic is,

"Why not just overcome the biggest weakness/fear of them all, and everything underneath will be a cinch."

You could just drill into your head the belief of FAITH and the *After Life*, cause sometimes where there is no hope here, if you're crazy enough, you can just say, "Welp, Screw It! There may be no hope here, BUT THE AFTER LIFE IS GOING TO BE FREAKEN AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!"

So, my prescription for hopelessness, is;

(Who'my kiddin? Gym/Training/Discipline my #1, cause I've become independent, to be strong enough, and fearless enough, to stand alone, on my own two feet.........? Even if I have no.... ...feet(no disrespect to anyone that don't have feet(eeeeeeek)

Because without my discipline and obedience, my faith and prayer is way off. Just to clarify why 'discipline 1st over GOD'

#1.=GOD/GOD/GOD/FAITH/PRAYER/24-7/OBEDIENCE
#2.=A LIFE DEDICATED TO TRAINING/TOUGHNESS/DISCIPLINE/PAIN/ENDURANCE AND STRENGTH(GYM)(MARTIAL ARTS)
#3.=SEEK HELP/RESEARCH/DON'T DO IT ALONE/TALK(two heads are better than one)/NUTRITION/NUTRITION/NUTRITION/SOBRIETY/PURE LIVING/ANONYMOUS PROGRAMS/THERAPY
#4.=HAVE FUN/LAUGH/LAUGH/LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE/MUSIC

Stay off the drugs. Yeah you.(psych meds, foods, caffeine, over the counter garbage, etc.)(abstinence is STRENGTH)(and sex, I almost forgot, sex. Sorry to break the news to ya, but lust is the most destructive force of humanity, )

.....................FACE ALL FEARS.....................

I wish you all the best(Namaste)on your new-found journey.

What are you still doing here? GET OUT THERE AND GET TOUGH(WARRIORS)

"The key to happiness is overcoming your fears." ~ BLUR

(this quote from True Detective *CHANGED ME*)

I'M A MANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(2)BLURZ BIZARRO WORLD: BORN AGAIN

I've been using a self-hypnosis tool that I created, where you create a motivational music playlist to listen to everyday/morning that keeps you in a constant feeling of determined visualization of changing into the person you really desire to be. YOUR BEST VERSION OF A MORALITY/SPIRITUAL BEING(in my case).

It's a therapeutic tool that I've created to keep one's self on a specific frequency.

For instance; I've been thinking of songs, trying to get the perfect playlist, and I thought of the song, 'Bitter End' by - Placebo, but I didn't go to that song. Instead, I thought of this song, 'What Have We Done' by - The Veer Union, and out of the corner of my eye, I seen they had a song called, 'Bitter End' AND THE LYRICS ARE EXACTLY WHERE I'M AT IN LIFE(weird stuff?)
(Really pay attention in life, for clues, like as if your name wasn't Sherlock Holmes himself, bursting through the entrance of the 'rabbit hole', down the chute and up thru the hatch of 'THE MATRIX' :D )

TO BE CONTINUED

8:37 P.M. - Ok, now I'm officially bugging.

I don't even know how to explain this?

I've been researching this principle of, *Transmutation* The meaning of the word "transmute", is - the changing, or transferring of one form of energy into another. A simple explanation.

So, because I've been really fascinated and obsessed about how taking 'The Vow Of Celibacy' can really lead to an empowerment, and they have this principle throughout history, even connected to Einstein, about how instead of living a lust driven life, like most humans do(there's more negative drives, we'll talk about), you *TRANSMUTE* that energy instead into a hyperfocus into some main goal, life purpose, path, dream, obsession, life changer, and you stick to it, till the end?

So this study of transmutation, got me BRAIN STORMING, that what if living the opposite of the 7 deadly sin of lust, IS JUST ONE LEVEL OF TRANSMUTATION????????

THE 7 HEAVENLY VIRTUES, MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

7 #EMPOWERMENT TRANSMUTATIONS?

7 LEVELS?

people in history only referred to, and focused on the ONE?

So you LIVE by the 7 contrary heavenly virtues...

and then, I came across 7 chakras.....................................................

*EUREKA* MAN

FREAKY=*EUREKA*, MAN

EACH VIRTUE WILL *UNLOCK* EACH CHAKRA = #ENLIGHTENMENT

The sad thing, is that this is just one small crumb down(or up)the trail of the rabbit hole,
and I probably have this wrong in some ways, 
or totally,
who knows.

The transmutation part is on the money though, cause if you stop doing negatives, and do the contrary positive, that is a transmution(just made up a word).

Later Gator, I got'ta go drink this all in.

MANIC


"Faith is like a rubber band, for you must achieve redemption, cause how ever far down you have fallen, is how far up faith will take you." ~ BLUR

(1)BLURZ BIZARRO WORLD: INTRODUCTION

Maby I'm healed enough(or hardened enough)
(wow, I had to Google how to spell maybe?)
(looking at it, like, "Isn't that how it's spelled?"

This is what I'm talking about, we all just deteriorate faster and faster it becomes this sick game of fighting against the clock to figure this thing out before our time runs out.

MY SPELLING(brain)IS GETTING WORSE(maybe? ;)


What I was trying to say is that maybe I'm healed enough to start documenting life again?

I miss it!

The only way to express how mad this world is would be to explain it everyday, for example; A viagra(or cialis, who the hell knows)commercial I just heard came on in the living room, WHERE MY MOM IS, anddddddddd,,,,,, I am living a completely, *VOW OF CELIBACY* lifestyle, and it's just the mad irony that I got'ta constantly hear that crap all day.

I'm not inside all day/isolated. I get out A LOT now. 
I walk 6 to 8 miles a day and work out at the gym like a lunatic,
Really got me disciplined and tough to deal with life,
Prepare for death(#Ascension)
And break my, compulsive/self-destructive behaviors.

It's gotten easier.

Got therapy twice a week.
Trying to get into the "N.A. - A.A. - ANY FREAKING A" circuit.
Probably the only community that'll take me(probably not true, I just gotta get out there #REDEMPTION)

My mom's recovering from a stroke,
I got a second shot at saving her,
and BOY ARE MY ARMS TIRED(badupbumpbup)

I'm in a complete natural high manic episode for the passed two weeks,
Cause I'm doing really good...
But it's all do to #STRENGTH

I'm really on edge that it's up to me( the mental illness guy)to save my mom.
It puts so much pressure on me.
Nobody else but me, would, will, or would be willing.

And the truth is, I'm a hair away from being completely mental illness rehabilitated.
In complete self control of my behaviors,
I'm not on any psych medication,
Reintroduced/Reinducted back into society.

A PRODUCTIVE MEMBER OF SOCIETY! 

That's pretty much it.
That's me in a nutshell.
ME IN A FREAKING "NUT" SHELL=GET IT?

BLURrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr(BURP)

p.s. no, I did not burp. I don't do that, ever!

P.S./P.S. - Oh(shhhhhhh)I'm looking for a job(starting tomorrow). This is by far my #1 weakest area of my entire life. I'm going to buy my mom a car, give her HUNDREDS OF DOLLAR BILLS IN HER POCKETS AT ALL TIMES, and take care of her health and nutritional needs, cause that's what a son should do(if they have those things, I can't give my mom what I don't have)BUT IF I HAD IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope I'm ready to do this?

Off to find a job!

Ciao!