BLURZ 50,000 VIEW NEW YEAR 2017 CELEEMBRATION(PUNK EDITION)

Today is 12/29/2016 just two days shy of 2017.
(Still Alive?)

I finally reached, breached, creeped up on 50,000 views.
GOD what a pain in the ass.
Now onto 60,000=SEE YA IN 20 YEARS :(

And now centimetering my way to 90,000 views on YouTube is even WORSE. When "YouTube" wrongfully terminated my 1,100+ video "YouTube" on August 29th 2014 all the way to February 5th(and a cruise ship load of therapy later)2016, a year and a half of HORRORfying hopelessness later, it took a couple months for youtube to even give my my views back, and then after they did and it was at 81,000 views, for some odd reason, THEY FREAKEN SHAVED OFF a little over 2,000 views, I was back down to 79,000 those fuggers?

Now I'm at 81,600 and something, see you in a 100 years.

I mean, talk about never giving up when you can psychicly read minds and you can hear everybody's thoughts saying, "just freaking give up already, it's never going to happen" or, even worse, you're completely invisible and people just complete blindly block out what you do, that you don't even do it, it/you ain't even worth acknowledging.

And then you have all the people lumped into the category of all the people that turned their back on you because they didn't believe/or see any potential in you, THE DOUBTERS, but if you were to become a HUGE success tomorrow they would end up trying to contact you like you didn't happen to notice how superficial, materialistic, fake, synthetic, manipulative, narcissistic, egomaniacal, selfish, users blood sucking emotional vampires that wouldn't give you the time of day, they all really are, I wouldn't even bother, if that day comes the damage is DONE.

Nooooooo, if you've ever hurt me, I would never look anyone that hurt me up on the computer to see what they are doing, I got too much self-dignity for that. Too much self-respect. that's pathetic! I'LL NEVER KNOW Succed/fail, I don't give a fudge "Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession" ~ Lady Sovereign :~3

But this is MY celebration, and I am EMBRACING it, going into this new year;

MY REIGN OF TERROR(just kidding)

BACK WITH A VENGEANCE()

THIS WORLD NEEDS ITS ASS KICKED!

The year before was worse, my mom had a stroke a day before her 60th birthday, the year before that the car broke down lost the youtube, but my mom was my biggest fan and my main drive was to succeed and give my mom the life she never had, so when I lost my youtube it broke my moms heart, because soul mate connections come in many forms; family, friends, a lover, me and my mom feel eachothers pains, and I realize this. Nobody else has ever been there for me. Nobody acknowledges the blood - sweat - and tears that I've put into this, to not even get a crumb=my day is coming, SO HELP ME GOD.

SO MENTALLY ILL
SO MUCH THERAPY

And if you betrayed me=SUCCESS IS REVENGE, and I really look forward to that being dished out.

THE BEGINNINGgggggggg

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Feeling Victorious: SO EXCITED ABOUT THE NEW YEAR - 2017(Resolutions Edition)

(i don't feel like spell checking)
WAKEY! WAKEY! MY ASS IS CLOSING IN ON SUCCESS
People are generally; mean/hateful/resentful/manipulative/jealous, can not be trusted(etc.).
It baffles me how many human beings do not realize the biggest threat to a human being, is other human beings, they will spoil the whole LOT.

So you stay ALONE.
Conserved.
Keep to your SELF.
Independent.
Hardcore, -Stand Alone Complex-.
STICK WITH GOD!(above all else)

I'M THE VICTIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I am around a lot of people now,
and I have to worry about haters,
and my friend got me into Miranda Sings Netflix show, 'Haters Back Off'.

People just can't be happy for you doing good.
From family,
to people that you have crossed paths with,
and that sense of wicked intention that people just can't wish the best for you,
has really messed me up.

That's the pains of being psychic,
but I can't imagine the pain of not being psychic.

I WISH EVERYONE THE BEST!

BLUR ADVICE for 2017: People need to build their own life. Something to call their own. INDEPENDENCE FIRST! Stop looking for happiness or a life, or fulfillment, or to fill an unfillable void in other people. STOP getting involved with people, looking for a life in others, think hard about what you truly want, and start building your own life, your own world that you can actually call your own. This is why I'm so confident, spiritual because GOD fills me. I had to fight thru HELL to get to where I am at this very moment. Break this fake human connection and plug your self in to GOD, and then you know about REAL human connection. 

I don't know what the future holds.
I can be dead any moment.
So I speak my mind.
As much as possible.
And if so?
I say Good-bye.
And Good-luck.
GOD-SPEED!

But if I live into 2017,
and am not some sort of wicked HOLY WARRIOR ANGEL PSYCHIC IN THE AFTER-LIFE/HEAVEN/SPIRIT WORLD/REALM that you can contact by saying my name, "BLUR", then I am sober and celibate and about to get a job, then a new video camera(overdue), and focus on going VIRAL BABY.

That's my New Years Resolution, to, 'Go Viral or Die Trying'(kind of like 50 Cent, Get Rich Or Die Trying), I'm at my wits end, and hungry to go viral, waking up to 100,000's of views a day and hate comments telling me I should kill my self.

And just maybe.
MAYBE.
I will become rich(without the filthy),
become millionaire,
do my "Reverse Tithing - 90%" documentary where I give everyone 10,000 $'s and throw a huge party, and ask them to say something to the camera of how 10,000 dollars is going to help their life, with a hardcore BLUR PHILL-OSOPHY that by far the number best human investment IS TO INVEST IN YOUR FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS(GOD I feel like I am taking CRAZY PILLS)

And then with that internet fame, I will start a mental illness/mental health themed fashion line that will be a funding/foundation/donation site for people with mental illness and I will lock into place making sure that all my friends are taken care of for the rest of their life. Easier said than done that anyone that crossed my *circle of life* if I become a millionaire will get a piece, because it's one thing to go viral and have thousands of dollars, but to become a millionaire takes many steps.

But exposure really is the key!

So, wish me luck?

And true *LOVE* might be just around the corner?

I LOVE YOU - And Thank You For Everything, All Your Help, You Know Who You Are My LOVE ;)