It doesn't matter

It doesn't matter if I suffer,
whether I live, or die,
I want to say goodbye to this life,
but can't yet.

It doesn't matter whether I love,
or am loved,
cause that will never happen.

It doesn't matter about my happiness,
all I know is pain and loneliness,
happiness is something I am not allowed to touch,
and being loved is something I have never felt.

"the only way to not be hurt anymore,
is to leave this place"
(I'm already gone)

I'm letting go,
never to hold on to anything again;
I'm letting go of my HEART

no more dreams, I embrace the nightmare

It doesn't matter It doesn't matter It will never matter
Because I don't matter.

, because I have always been alone,
and will always be.